The day I decided to stop killing myself

Let me start by saying that I LOVE smoking. It’s a horrible fact to admit, especially with the current stigma attached to the topic, but I really enjoy it.

So this story starts about 38 years ago when I was just a kid. My parents were children in the 70s and they grew up in a time when smoking was normal and socially accepted. Everyone smoked and you could smoke anywhere you went to the grocery store, to the restaurant where you dine, to work and even to the doctor’s office. Hell, even the doctor was probably smoking on the visit with you.

Now I was about 5 or 6 years old and my parents were smoking around me and I hated it. He just couldn’t stand the smell of smoke and hated smelling smoke all the time. I would complain and moan begging them to stop telling them that I was unpleasant and that it made me sick and, of course, they would respond with the normal parental response of “stop complaining.” I remember once when I was still very young, but I got into my mother’s purse and decided that I would make her quit smoking. So I grabbed his pack of “Marlboros” and was going to show it to him and threw them in the bathroom and left them floating there. Well, my mom found them like that and was furious with me. They probably called me all the names in the book, but in the end she calmed down and told me about it. She said “it really bothers you so much, huh?” Well, I just told him that he was gross and stinky and that he didn’t like going to school and smelling like smoke all day. He agreed that it was an unpleasant habit and that he would try to quit. Well, of course, like many people “trying to quit,” it didn’t really work. A couple of months after this event my mom found out that I was pregnant from what she was sure was my little brother and when she found out I was pregnant she looked at me and said “I’ll grant you your wish” and never smoked. again. Following my mother’s example, Mt Papa even decided to quit smoking and to this day they have never smoked again.

Fast forward about 10 years. I was about 15 or so and knew at this point that I had an addictive personality, even if I didn’t know what that was at the time, I knew that I tended to indulge in whatever I found enjoyable. One day I was cycling down a highway (small town highway) and I found a pack of cigarettes that someone must have accidentally dropped. I picked them up even though I had never had an interest in smoking, I thought I was fine with those things in my pocket. You may be thinking to yourself what it must be like when you started smoking, but you would be wrong. I kept that pack of cigarettes hidden in my room for months and every now and then I would take them out, look at them, smell them, and even act like I was smoking, but I knew better not to light one because I knew I couldn’t stop once I started. And remember all those years ago how unpleasant my parents smelled from those things.

Years passed and I resisted the urge to join all my friends and all the “cool guys” and start smoking. I worked in restaurants where people smoked and took smoke breaks while I was working, but I refused to smoke so I took 5 minute breaks where I walked away like everyone else, but I didn’t smoke, I just stood there. And breath. One day, I guess I was 19-20 years old, I was coming back from a trip to Louisville KY with a friend and he was smoking and I said, oh heck, I’m going to try one and see what happens with all the hype. I was about to. From the first puff of that cigarette. Marlboro Menthol Lights Got me hooked. My nerves seemed to calm down and I was relaxed and I just felt satisfaction.

So for the next 18 years I was an avid smoker. Smoking from 1 packet to 2 packs a day. I had to have my cigarettes even choosing to smoke instead of eating sometimes because I couldn’t afford to buy both food and cigarettes.

I got married about a year and a half ago and my wife doesn’t smoke now, she doesn’t really complain about me for smoking and has always helped facilitate my own murder. Recently, however, she had started to get frustrated with my smoking habit, worried that it would cost me an early life, so she has been asking me to quit smoking and complaining about me whenever she gets the chance.

Six months ago I decided I was right: I was paying $ 6 to $ 7 a day just to KILL ME and I had to make a change. I knew that I could never quit suddenly, so I started doing some research online. I found all kinds of tips on how to quit smoking and what all these people had tried, gum and lozenges, patches and hypnosis. After several unsuccessful attempts, I learned about Vaping. I came across a website that told me all about this new alternative to smoking called Vaping, where people had these gadgets that took this juice and when you hit them, you put out these big clouds of vapor. I read a lot about the products and the benefits and the downfalls. Some will say it’s worse than smoking, others will say it’s not that bad, but it’s still horrible. After all my research, I found that vaping in general is much better for you than cigarettes. Tobacco is sprayed with tons of carcinogens and pyrogens along with a host of other deadly chemicals and then rolled into a cigarette and set on fire. That already sounds horrible.

So I decided that I was going to change. Learning that many people switched to vaping and gradually eliminated nicotene from the juice they buy or prepare.

Once I decided to switch, I still needed to find the correct Vape or Mod as I found out they are called. So I got back online and started looking for the best website with the best products. That’s when I found They had everything you can imagine. All kinds of different products ranging from beginner to advanced Vaper. At first, I chose a starter kit that had everything I needed to start vaping and quit those nasty cigarettes. I bought that kit, it was a SMOKE POCKET VAPE. The service with Direct Vapor was excellent, which means that the checkout process was easy. Logging in was a breeze and I even walked in during a sale and got my product at a phenomenal price. The prices there are already lower than anywhere else I could find. So the shipment was extraordinary. I placed my order and immediately received a confirmation email reviewing my order and informing me that as soon as my order shipped, I would receive a follow-up email. Note that I ordered my first MOD from them around 5:30 pm on a Monday night. By early Tuesday morning, I had received my tracking information, which means my package has already shipped this fast. Since that first order of the day, I have been back many, many times. I have decided that Vaping is the way to go for me. So I have ordered a number of different products including newer and bigger MODs but also e-juices, their options are great as well as some toolkits and items to create some of my own MODS and each and every one of the times I have asked Direct Vapor my experience has been outstanding. I would recommend them to anyone at any time for a third vaping need.

Now I have decided to take steps on my own to help others in the way they helped me by creating an all-inclusive view that gives people information on how to change or how to quit smoking. It offers suggestions on which products you will need to quit and not change, and provides direct links to those products. It also provides information on the switch to vaping and has links to some of the most popular products and the best part is that it is actually a forum for people to share their stories and create a community of mutual support. The name of the website is The reason for the subdomain is because this is a free site that I have created just to help people on their journey and hopefully one day it becomes a solid business that can grow and help more struggling QUITTERS along the way.

Here are some links if you want to take the journey to a healthier life.

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